Okay, that was a little over-dramatic, but it amused me to be as such. Admittedly, though, I am feeling a little empty at the moment.
About this time three years ago, I was pretty much on top of the world. I had just come out of a four-year relationship and was quickly turning the corner. I had learned a lot about myself in the breakup and was feeling really good about my future, even as I suffered through the initial loneliness.
I guess I just knew that there were things to look forward to in my future, even if I didn’t know what those things would be.
But three years later, I’m still waiting.
It’s not like I’ve been sitting around doing nothing. In truth, I’ve accomplished quite a lot. I just don’t feel like I have much to show for it. I don’t feel like there’s any personal value in my life. And yes, that’s something of a selfish mindset.
I feel like I’ve been so busy taking care of others that I’ve neglected taking care of myself. And yes, I know I’ve said that before.
I feel like Nicholas Cage in “The Family Man”. And yes, if you haven’t seen the movie this reference won’t mean much to you.
Something’s missing. And no, I don’t know how to find it.
The strange thing is, I’m not really worried. I’m just feeling unfulfilled. I know this will pass. But for that to be the case, I have to do something about it.
Game on.
