I think it’s called an epiphany

As good ole Dictionary.com puts it, “a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.”

Translation: a moment of clarity.

So here I am, once again, lying wide awake as the clock approaches 2am. It has been quite some time since I’ve checked in with a late-night scatterthought, and that’s part of the epiphany.

Where is this coming from? Probably all the caffeine coursing through my system right now.

But that’s not the point…that’s just the prelude.

There I am, roughly five minutes ago. Lying in my bed next to two wonderful and loving cats. I’m awake. And at that very moment, two thoughts are running through my head.

1. I love my life

2. I’m going to win

The first thought requires no explanation. Well, maybe it does, actually. Considering how overworked I am, of late, you might think that I’m not enjoying my life. But the truth is, a lot is going right for me, these days. Not everything (or else I wouldn’t be single), but a lot. I love my various jobs. I’m proud of who I am. I’m finally playing my saxophones and singing on a regular basis (after years of thinking that I should). I’m buying a house. And I’m putting myself in position for a lot of future opportunities.

What’s not to love about that?

Which brings us to point #2: I’m going to win.

Win what?

I dunno.

Probably not the upcoming mega-lottery…though maybe I should buy a ticket. Wouldn’t that be crazy if I said this and then won the lottery?

K, now I HAVE to buy a ticket.

I guess you could say, at this very moment, I feel like I’m going to win. Whatever comes my way…I have a feeling that I can handle it.

And in case you’ve never felt that…well, it’s fantastic. Liberating. Inspiring.

And if you need proof, well, you’re reading it. This is probably one of the more creative and free-thinking scatterthoughts I’ve written of late.

I’m beginning to think that part of why I’ve been feeling so run down, lately, is that I haven’t been able to just open the floodgate and write, like I used to. To be honest, with all of the writing I’ve been doing for work, I just haven’t been inspired to sit down and type up scatterthoughts. But this is…relaxing. It’s a welcome change of pace from trying to figure out what a customer wants to hear in my next proposal, or what a reader will find interesting about a car.

The funny thing is, all of these thoughts have been floating around in my head. I know they’ve been there. Yesterday, I was thinking about the Adam Sandler movie “Anger Management”. In particular, I was thinking about the song “I Feel Pretty”, which is used in the movie but actually comes from the musical “West Side Story”. And that was most likely sparked in my mind when I read about a commercial Nike filmed with Maria Sharapova (the tennis player) that used “I Feel Pretty” as the theme.

Yep.

I feel pretty.

And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Thanks, caffeine. You really woke me up.